I was having the AEM course at Temasek Polytechnic this morning and i can TP is really huge, like really HUGE! Lecture was alright, i was still able to concentrate for that pathetic 1 hour, and we had a 15minutes break after that. Next was tutorial, which was really boring yet interesting. Had a 1 and a half hour recess, which i've never had it before. 1 and a half hour, imagine... During the one hour break, Chelcy Mummy and I explored around the whole TP and we got lost, really lost cause TP is way too big. Soon, we found our way back to the room and we rested for 10mins before our tutorial started. During the tutorial, i was using the computer to surf the net and at the same time, searching for information about the terms. It's really cool, cause we got to use the computer as and when we want to without seeking permission from the lecturer. You can do anything you want, even sleep and the lecturer won't bother about you at all! Don't believe it, try it the next time. I am really in love with poly life, it's just full of freedom i can say. "We treat our students like adults, not teenagers. We believe in not scolding them' - From Mr Tay, our lecturer. That was what he told us, it is so damn true. Scolding won't help us much, instead we will rebel more if scolding were used on us. Poly's life is rather busy, i agree but yet you get to enjoy everything. They even have a air-conditioned canteen, can you imagine? And that air-conditioned canteen is like 10 times bigger than Springfield's canteen. Cool isn't it? Yeah, trust me, you people will love poly life more than anything else! Oh anyway, our lecturer is super classic, according to what Chelcy said. His hair is center parting, like peeled bananas, no offence though. And he kept looking up to the ceiling when he was teaching us, as if there were tons of gold up there. Super classic lecturer we have, but he's really nice. And i was super careless. The lecturer reminded us not to leave anything behind and i carelessly left my dearest handphone behind. I nearly lose my mind. Chelcy and I went to the office and told the person about it, and they opened up the door for us to get in to get my phone. Thank goodness my phone was still in there, otherwise i will really become insane. Left TP, and took bus8 to the interchange and we did some window-shopping to look for some things that might be necessary for my birthday party. Lastly, we headed home. That's all for today.


(-) Can someone surprise me this Friday with a cake and a piece of song on the guitar when i'm at TP having our course? I will be rushing for work at 4pm after the AEM course, it will end at 10pm. See how pathetic my birthday will be like. Sadded.
But Chelcy and the beannnnz family will be throwing a party for me maybe around 21st-25th June @ East Coast Park. Anybody interested to come, tag me on my blog and tell me about it :D

(-) My birthday is around the corner, i am wondering if you will wish me happy birthday.

(-) I want everyone to sing me a happy birthday song this Friday. Can can can?


My birthday wishlist :

- Lots of helim balloons with prints on it.
- Top shop black bikini top.
- Urban Male red/pink slippers.
- Charles and Keith pink wallet.
- Diva's cartoon bracelet.
- Cotton on denim beach shorts.
- Watches
- Handmade birthday cards by anyone
- Canon EOS 500D
- Nice-looking bags, haversack maybe.
- Grey beanie
- Top Shop Clothes and the Blue High Waist Denim shorts.
- Flats
- Necklaces from Mini bits.
- Someone to play a piece of song on the guitar for me and surprise me with a cake.
- Stitch birthday cake.
- Stitch figurines, items!



My dream birthday party ;

I want everyone to be dressed according to the dresscode given, everyone to come in pairs of the opposite sex. After that, someone would blindfold me and bring me to a corner where all my birthday presents are, and tons of balloons being tied there for me. And i will open up my blindfold, and someone will come in with a birthday cake, and everyone starts to sing for me a very loud birthday song! Lastly, someone will play a piece of song on the guitar for me, and there goes the cake-smashing session! How i wish it will come true.

Busy holiday plans ;

I am going for a job interview soon and i doubt i will be free during the holidays. I will be attending a Water Technology AEM course @ Temasek Polytechnic in May/June2010. There will be 14hours of lectures, 4hours of tutorials, 15hours of practical, 3hours of fieldtrip, 4hours of test and in total i am gonna sacrifice 40hours of my June holiday for this programme. Here is my schedule for this programme :

31May2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Practical

1stJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Practical

2ndJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1300 ; Practical
1300-1600pm ; Fieldtrip

3rdJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1345pm ; Test1

4thJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Practical

7thJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Practical

8thJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Practical

9thJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Test2

In total : 40 hours gone like this.

Other days, i still have the mural painting, and all my holiday plans are gone. I even have to attend this course on my birthday. I hope i won't get bashed on that day itself. Well, coming to think of it, i think it is rather meaningful to spend it this way than to sleep, eat, drink and shop all the time. Plus i am going to work, how cool is that. My holidays are all taken up, no going for me except weekends. Lastly, there's E-Learning on the last week of holidays. My 4weeks of holidays will be spent well. I can keep myself really occupied. There's a sec3 camp to Pahang from 29thJune2010-2ndJuly2010. That's all, goodluck to me for my holiday! :D

; I've lost my voice and i am talking like a robot, helppp me! I sound like a unisex, disgusting shit! But i still find it sexy though!

(-)I want to see you, you, you, you, you, you, you! 'You' make me smile! :D

When my birthday is nearing, i don't feel like celebrating, i am afraid you won't turn up. Only you, that special you makes my birthday celebration meaningful. Ok, i want tons and tons of things for my birthday. Only a few will be invited to my "special birthday party" organised by the Annoying Family! Yes, they are the best people inn my world and they are :

Chelcy - The mother
Zafirah - Youngest sister
Andy Chua - Younger brother
Gerald Goh - Youngest brother
Me - The elder sister!

Cool family i have right, don't envy us. These family members of mine are scaring me, they are planning a terrible and dirty birthday party i guess. I am so gonna be dead. Who will be there to protect me? :<

23May2010 ;

Went out with Guan Ming only, cause Mr Seah was @ the Lion Dance. Went to Vivo to walk around, was feeling bored and i was almost rotting to the max! Took bus 65 and went back to Tamp to look for Nico cause he was havin' CIP. Accompanied him and had dinner with him together with one of his friends. I like his friends, they are really friendly and they make you smile, and i mean really smile! Went home after that.

Nico, take care of yourself. You've been coughing badly yesterday. Drink more warm water!

22May2010 ;

Did spring-cleaning for my room, and i cleared tons of rubbish away. My room is finally clean, like really FINALLY! Went to Central for dinner, had Japenese food. Their bowls are really huge and i mean huge! You can even place your whole face in. The waiters there are really funny! Did shopping along the river bank, cause there was a flee market going on, and i spent a total of $61.00. I've got to stop spending and start saving! I'm gonna work at a cart shop @ Downtown East, find me there alright! :D

(-) I want the special "you' to play a piece of song on the piano during my birthday , will you ? ♥

& I want you to be the loudest when singing my birthday song!

; Will be going out with GM and WL later, but they can't confirm their time yet, troublesome people.

; Andy Lao Di, lastlong with Eileen Da Sao alright! No matter what happens, Chel Mama and your sist will always be there for you! :>

; Tsz ho, sorry to make you worry for me. Don't worry bro, i'm already recovering. My headache and my fever is gone. I'm only down with sore throat and slight cough now, hence you shouldn't be worrying anymore. Thanks for being there for me all the while bro. Anything just text or call me, and lastlong with Megan! :>

; I'm recovering soon, so no worries people. Thank you guys for all your concern these few days. Love you people! :>

; (B) Take care of yourself, i don't wanna see you falling sick. Drink more warm water and have more nutritious food, no fried and unhealthy food for you for now.

; I think i am in love with guys who can play the piano and those who can dance! They just look so charming. Awesome! <3

20thMay2010

Went to school in the morning, usual routine. Had flag-raising, and there was a briefing in the hall about the Pahang trip that the whole sec3 level would be going for our Sec3 camp. It sounds and looks so interesting, i can't wait to go for the trip. Had lessons as per normal, and i developed a high fever during maths lesson. I was having a split headache and i didn't feel well. During Chemistry lesson, i realized that i was having a high fever. Andy sat beside me and helped me copy down the notes while i was just lazing around due to my fever. Thank you Andy Lao Di! Next was Mother Tongue. I was sleeping throughout the 2 periods, while others were copying the corrections. I know it's bad to sleep in class, but i was not feeling unwell so i am excused. After school was the Clay Animation course. I couldn't bear the pain of the headache anymore, hence i didn't do anything. Chel Mama and Andy Lao Di, thanks for buying me the panadol tablets. After i took the tablets, i went to sleep immediately in the Art room, leaving the others to do the shooting of the animation, really sorry guys. And thank you Izzati for makin' me the cute little toys and the get-well card too. Went to Bedok to collect something and homed after that.

21stMay2010 :

I'm now left all alone @ home, will be going to the doctor soon. Bye, i wanna go and bathe now. Get well soon cheryl!

Benson, takecare of yourself. You said you are a strong guy, but you are falling sick now. Drink more water. Hope he knows what i'm typing here, but it seems like he doesn't even bother. Bye! ;>

I'mma munching on my cookies now, which i bought from Subway"Eat Fresh"! Hmm, i think i still haven't got over him. Why do you still come into my mind? Pleaseeeee go away from me, really. I am getting nightmares, and i hate nightmares. I kept hearing your names when no one called out your name. What is wrong with me? Gosh, pleaseee wake up Cheryl. He's not the only guy in the whole universe, come on'. Oh god, why am i talking to myself? I think i am maddd. Hey people, could someone out there please sms me? I'mma really really bored! Take out your phone and dial my number now now now! :>

iamtryingtogetoveryou.

Hey dude, you wanna know something? I am still standing strong here without you! Thanks to all those who cheered me up. Don't worry people, i'm fine! I'm still standing fine without him. Cause it's pointless getting upset over a guy, totally crap. I will just continue to lead my cheerful lifestyle like how i was. Hmm. Maybe cause of all the encouragement that my friends gave, therefore i am able to overcome this. thank you so much friends, especially Chelcy, Andy, Tsz Ho, Aisha, Rachel, Mellysaa and many more. Love you guys so much!!! I promise you all that i will live my live to the fullest, i won't fret over small things. No point thinking about him, he just doesn't know how to cherish. I doubt you would even miss me even though it was just a few days ago. After i have done so much for you, staying back in school, staying up late in the night just to finish your present and this is what i get. Nevermind, forget it. Bye all! Ok, webccaaaammminggggggggg time! :>

Should i throw this away or still give it to him?



♥Who will i run to?

Ok, i think i am tryin' hard to get over that thing. Well, it's gonna be another tough journey for me, but yet life still goes on. Everyone has troubles on their own, but at least i am contented to know that there is always someone by my side caring for me. i hope you are not taking it too hard. Letting go might be a good thing for both of us though, like what you said. i will be strong cause i am a strong girl! right right? :>

14th May 2010 ;

Ok, didnt go to school cause i didn't have to. Crap! woke up and met V' at Whitesand. I was pratically very late, as usual Cheryl. Typical me! And i am proud to say that! Went out with v', Jia En and Brenda. Had KFC for lunch, to be precise i had KFC snackers meal no.1 ! Haha, random. I think i am mad because of a silly breakup. Crap again! Went to Pasir ris park to play bubble, that was truly fun man people! Ok, andy and chelcy came after that. Ok, poor little panda who spilled the bubble in her file, and her phone was *O-M-G!* gone case liao. Next we went to E-hub, sat at a corner to slack. I was still blowing my bubble then cause i am mad, like always. After that went to V's place and had a small break there. Tryin' to find some things to do, but it seems like there is always nothing for me to do cause i am always 'free' . Nah, i doubt so. Ok, i don't even know what i am typin' now. all i see is words! woo, my phone just rang and i got a shock, crap. Hmm. Continued... Called Jia En to meet us @ downtown to pay for our dinner. Sorry! I know we spent a bomb. But it was fun, isn't it? Took bus 3 home, Jia En and i were disturbing V' about J'. Haha! Ok, inside joke! Well, i was kinda little upset again, i don't know why. Reached home and Jia en cabbed home again! Like again despite spending a bomb for dinner. V' was chatting on the phone with Jia En and a lot of crap shit came out from them! As usual, they are so hmmmmm*. Ok, i slept really really early last night cause i was listening to songs and V' was busy with En en the gay! Ok, that's all.

You were the one
Who I could tell my deepest fears
And you were the one
Who always wiped away my tears

When he hurt me you were my prince
Sent straight from above
Like a fool I never saw
You were falling in love

So now I’ve lost everything
Cause now you say
You’re gone forever more
So who will I

Who will I run to
Who will I turn to
Now that you left me behind
Who will dry my tears
When I cry
Who will I run to
And who will I turn to
Now that you’re not here
In my life

You were the one
I took for granted all those years
And you were the one
I should’ve known
It was so clear

How could I be so blind
Not to see what’s before my eyes
I’ll get you back here with me
If it takes the rest of my life

'Cause I would give anything
'Cause I want you back forever more

Who will I run to
Who will I turn to
Now that you left me behind
Who will dry my tears
When I cry
Who will I run to
And who will I turn to
Now that you’re not here
In my life

I will gladly journey
Across the deep blue sea
If I could know
That I would have you here with me
I realize that I was blind
But now I finally see
I need you back here in my life
Oh baby can it be

Who will I run to
Who will I turn to
Now that you left me behind
Who will dry my tears
When I cry
Who will I run to
Who will I turn to
Now that you’re not here
In my life

Who will be there for me
Who’s gonna rescue me
Who’s gonna share my dreams
Who’s gonna mend this broken heart



Cherylstillmissesyou! :>
anyway, jia en is a guy uh, not a girl! :>
thank you mummy, lao di, V', panda, en en, domo, mell, a'sweetheart, rachhy for cheering me up. loveyouguys so damn much! <3

现在我只想回到最初的时候;

We were still happily texting one another a few hours ago and the next minute you were gone. It was just too sudden, i didn't expect it to be so soon. You told me not to cry although you knew it was hurting but yet to you it seemed like nothing happened. i know i am selfish to say this but i felt that you didn't even feel at least a little upset over this. Maybe you will be fine without me. i know it's selfish for me to still cling on to this thought that there would be a day when we are together once again. Maybe on the outside you appear to be so strong, but you are cryin' in your heart, i don't know ; i really don't know. you told me we can still be friends, but my wish is not to be friends with you only. i want something more than that. i really miss the times when you were holding my hands, walking around the mall behaving like some small kids, havin' lunch/dinner together, quarreling where to eat(Mac or KFC), taking bus rides and many more. Although i am really upset, but i hope it doesn't affect your work or your studies as days passes by. If there's anything, i am still 8 digits away from you. i just couldn't believe my eyes,i don't believe what i saw. Perhaps you are right, i will do fine without you, or rather you as my friend. maybe i will have a better future like you said, and i promise you i will live on strongly even without you by my side. thank you to much for your past care and love. once again, let's keep the past behind us those flashbacks as memories in our hearts. i'm still lovin' you.4thApril2010, you will always be in my mind and as my memory.

在我眼裡妳永遠最美
連妳一個微笑也都會讓我醉
妳所謂的幸福我想給
以為手不放開就是痴心絕對　太愚昧

＊〔難道〕　笑容沒了　距離有了
快樂也走了　還是　真心死了
彼此不信任了　終於懂了　真的

＃很想說有妳是幸福的
很想說我的心是妳的
很想說妳真的誤解了
很想說妳真的忘記了 〔MY LOVE〕


很想說會好好疼妳的
很想說愛妳是自由的
很想說妳是否聽見了
很想說妳真的忘記了

愛了　就有堅持理由
別說　我會留在路口
不會走　愛妳會直到最後


很想說會好好疼妳的
很想說愛妳是自由的
很想說妳是否聽見了
很想說我們可不可以　復合

I know i am a selfish girl. I want many many many things that are beyond my reach. Somehow, i don't feel like myself today. I feel water rolling down my cheeks like running tap, maybe cause i'm too tired.



(B); It's been 2 weeks since we met up. I really really really miss you so muchh.


I'm sorry, there's no more chance for you once again. I will never forget the memories we once had.

longtimeago,youleftmeallalonetofightthebattle,andnowyouwannacomebacktohelpfight
thetoughwar.allicansayis;it'stoolate,i'msorrytosaythisbuti'vetosaythistohurtyou.
Bysayingallthesewon'tmakemegobacktoyoulikeinthepast,saveyoursalivia.

Lit paper was alright, except for the Unseen Poem. That's it, gone case.

English paper 1 = Average, excpet for Report.
Mother Tongue paper 1 = Average, excpet for Letter-writing.
" " paper 2 = Slightly above average
Mathematics paper 1 = Superb difficult, cause i'm always a failure in maths.
Physics paper = You can take a knife out and stab me, take my life.
Literature paper = Well, no words to describe.

Bye bye bye bye bye!

(B); Maybe we are able to meet up next week. Loveyou dear. ! <3

Can we please rewind time? I think i'mma gonna do badly for all my subjects. Down down down to the toilet bowl, into pipes and bye. My results are gonna be like shit. Seriously, Cheryl i think you're a failure. you're not putting in your best efforts. My mood is down, down down. i always fail to handle things well. there are times when i really feel like breakin' down, but i know i can't. why nust life be so stressful & disappointing sometimes. i really don't understand why. many people appear to be cheerful, but deep down inside they are hurt badly and they need someone to help them. well, i'mma one of them. i really need help. can someone wake me up from my sleep, pleaseeeeeeee? give a hard slap on my face *slap slap* and everything just dissapear from my mind *wooosh*. i'm really getting tired, really tired. i don't want history to repeat itself. everything is really not going right for me. i want to lose weight, i want to grow taller. Damn it, it will never work for you girl! i am no longer who i used to be. i've become more and more selfish, in what way> i really don't know. i just want many people to be by my side to motivate me to do well. I need someone strong mentally and physically to support me. Come' on, i can do it! Ok, that's all for today. Bye!:<

(-)it's upsetting to see you this way. there's no turning back for us, really. the moment when you wanted to leave my world, i told myself to forget you and live on strongly.And i did, so please do not appear again. It's really (i really don't know what to say). It's just too late to apologise and regret for what you've done. i'm no longer the one you knew. Bye.

(B)baby, i miss you soooo darn much. How i wish you were by my side now. ;<

F' you man, really*.

Ok. I'mma in the Digital Art Lab with Firah, Chel mama, Andy Lao Di and Rachh sweetheart. I'mma bored, and we're surfing the net and crapping around. Mummy is going crazy. Wheeee!

(-) I'm really pissed off with you bitch!*
(A) Dearest chocolate monster, no matter what we will always be with you sweetheart.
(N) Domo, don't smoke so much luh. & cheer up okay :D

B;

Happy 1st month to you monster. Though one month is neither a short nor long period of time, but we were very happy together. There were no quarrels or serious arguments *touch wood, touch wood* .I hope our relationship will continue this way without any troubles. Thank you for not only being my boyf but also my listening ear. I know i kept complaining to you about a lot of things, but yet you just listened w/out complaining. Though we cannot meet up often but i believe our love stays strong. No matter what others say about you, i would not mind your flaws, cause your flaws are the wonderful things that make you. I just love everything about you. Your strong arms to keep me warm when i'm feeling cold, your muscular chest for me to lean on and your soft gentle lips. No matter who you are or you've become, i will still love you as much. Remember a month ago, when you asked me to be your girlf. Though it was simple, but yet sweet. B' ,thank you for giving such warm and caring love since a month ago. I believe we still have a long journey ahead of us. Nobody can ever replace you in my heart. With you around, nothing else matters. Nothing is impossible with you by my side.

I've written you on the page of my heart, reflected your face on the mirrors of my soul, displayed you in the galleries of my eyes. Let our heart beat as one, our soul embrace with love. 4thApril2010, iloveyou baby <3

My love is all my heart
but it is sorrow that lays
upon my breast, dissolving
the amorous quest in particles
of doubt and crystalline scars,
murmuring words and melodies
woven out of fond black stars.

My love is all my dreams
but it is fear that ties my mind
and eyes, galloping my fractured
skies, whipping my hesitant soul
in this ungrammatical nightmare,
spurring me on to this abyss of
sick roses and despair.

My love is all my world
but it is just another day on the
ground and he can't hear me,
my heart doesn't make any
sound. And he can't see my
legs and velvet dress, he is
blind to my beauty and maybe
to my loving caress.

My love thinks my lips are easy
and my hands are cheap toys,
a nest of naughty cowboys.

My love is still my love
though I had long forgotten
all our gentle joys.

-Karla Bardanza

i'm still upset over the results.


I'mma goin' crazy, really crazy. Siva is adding more oil to the fire. It's the examination period and he chose this time to announce the bad news to us. It's partially our fault though. Hmm. Like Chel mummy said ; We were so passionate about the art piece and yet we got back just pure disapointment. This year, i find everything killin' me. Nothing is gonna turn out well for me. True enough, i haven't succeed in doing anything yet. You're sucha failure, Cheryl! :c

tomorrow is gonna be our first month! <3

I'mma lost in the jungle ;

Alright, i'mma really lost. I don't know why. I just told mummy that i am like lost dog wandering in the streets. Hmmm. Yesterday, i went to my cousin's place. Ok, she's a giving birth machine. She's only in her mid 20s and she has 3 children already. That's like Woooow! Yesterday was her 3rd child's first month(Man Yue). My family is turning into a babyworld. Yesterday there were about 5 babies at Jo's house. It was really enjoyable to have them around, babies are always trouble-free. How i wish i could remain as a baby forever. *Sighs* I spent my time looking after Braudon, my 5month old cousin. He's succha good boy man, i was carrying him pratically the whole day. Basically, i just spent my time with babies yesterday. That's all i have for today, pictures shall continue my post for me. (:

(-) You're sucha slut. You really spoil my day.

(B') Counting down 2 more days to our 1st month anni. You're now workin' while i'mma at home missin' you. Jiayou, and text me after work! Iloveyou <3

Anyway, i was playin' with mummy's hair curler and i just curled my hair. It looks kindda ****.