I wish you were here with me .


"Is it true that my feelings for you has never faded ?" I've been asking myself this question every night before i head to sleep . I really wonder if you do miss the times we had together , cause i really miss it . I hope you will be able to turn up tomorrow @ my birthday party . Yes , we may have been separated for quite some time , but my feelings towards you has never changed . Can we please rewind time and go back to the past ?


*I miss the times when we were at the chalet together .
*I miss the times when we were looking after the two little relatives of yours .
*I miss the times when i often go up to your place .
*I miss the times when you were texting me .
*I miss the times when we were at Marina Square .
*I miss the times when you used to hug me .
*I miss all the moments spent with you .

I guess you should know who you are .

*I will never forget how i first met you @ the Marina Square arcade . Sighs ):

Birthday party details : ( PLEASE TAKE NOTE ! )

Venue : Pasir Ris park

Time : 3-9pm (If anyone who wants to leave earlier , you can )

Date : 23rd June 2010

Dresscode : Black and white theme

*Food will not be provided for you people , but tidbits will be provided .

*Each of you have to pay an amount of $10 as we have to get some materials for the games planned .

*Bring extra shirts with you , cause i cannot assure that you people will be able to get back home in the clothes that you came in .

*Each of you MUST come with someone of the opposite sex , to ensure that number of boys and girls is balanced .

People who are turning up might be : Chelcy Kwan , Andy Chua , Gerald Goh , Siti Zafirah , Eileen , Tsz ho , Rachel 레이첼 , Leon Tan . Others to be confirmed again . Please reply to confirm that you will be turning up , thanks :D

*Important things ! Please take note !




I've been doing a lot of thinkings in the nights , i'm unable to get to sleep every night . I really wonder why this feelings come and go , sometimes i wish i wasn't a human . I don't want to have feelings , really . It sucks . I am confused now , sighs .

You're still on my mind , why ? Is it because i still miss you , or may be it's like what my mum has told me . I still like you .

Singapore is a boring city , i wanna travel and see the beautiful world . Someone please hold my hand , and take me around the world . Not many realized how beautiful the world can be like , they choose to stick to a place . Bring me far far away . Well , chalet was fun especially water bombing and cake-smashing time . Take me away please :D

Should i or should i not ?

The feeling of falling sick is really awful . I nearly blacked out when i was on my way to TP today , i did not know what to do while waiting for a cab to come by , so i decided to just sit on the grass patch , i couldn't stand it anymore . It was really terrible . I vomited like 3times this morning before going to school . Thank God i did not faint on my way to TP. We're currently having a 3hour lunck break now, before the test starts . First time having such long lunch break , cool feeling . I'm having a terrible headache , but i have to memorise all my tutorial notes. Please get in my head , noteeeeeeeeees ! All the best to me for my test later .
I wanna get to poly fast , i hate the life in secondary school . Might be meeting Bunny later . Take care of yourself while working . You don't need to worry about me . Thank God that i'm working later , otherwise if i faint , i really don't know what to do .

Ok, i've got to study for my test already .

(-) Don't let others control the way you live your life , make your own decisions and decide for yourself the way you want to lead your life . Don't let others control your life .

(-) I don't know if i should tell you this , is it the correct time ? I think i've ****** for you .

(-) If you are jealous that we are close , tell us . And it is not an offence to be close to our friend . You can backstab us for all you want , but we will still stya strong as a family . You wanna badmouth us , go ahead . I believe in karma . If you think that we're snatching someone away from you , i'm sorry we are not . We are just good friends . Think twice before backstabbing us . You will get your revenge .

Happy birthday !

Well , i had a few surprises on my birthday yesterday (4thjune2010). Firstly, Chelcy Momma and Jia En were both waiting downstairs for me before i went to school in the morning. That was just the beginning, they had more surprises later on. Keep reading on to find out ! Jia En passed me 3 birthday cards , and they were done by : Vinia, Brenda and Jia En himself. Thank you people ! I got a shocked when Jia En told me that he waited @ my house void deck since midnight. Cool , he waited throughout the night just to pass me the birthday cards. He called me in the middle of the night when i was sleeping, and i didn't answer, resulting him to "camp" under my void deck from 12midnight till 8.30am. Sorry ! Next, Jia En sent Chelcy and I to Temasek Poly for our AEM course and he was like one of the poly students , cool rightttt . Went class while Jia En went to change . During the two hour break time, we bought a small puff to replace as my birthday cake and pocky as the candles to celebrate my birthday. Thanks guys for the birthday song that you all sang so loudly. Next, Chelcy received a phone call and she went out leaving me alone in the lab. And there's when my next surprise came in. She practically tricked me into going to the canteen to sit there and wait, while others stared at me like i am an alien. Come on' i'm an ordinary human like you guys, just that i'm in uniform. I sat at the canteen and waited for Chelcy cause she "lied" to me that she wanted to get something from the canteen. And guess what, she came in with Jia En who was holding on to 15balloons in total, which made him so embarrassed. Chelcy told me that there were some people who mistook that Jia En wanted to propose to Chelcy. Haha, superb joke of the day. And they even offered themselves to take a video for Chelcy and Jia En. Funny to the max! They came in to the canteen and they passed me the bunch of 15 balloons, and at that moment i was speechless. I was really touched by what they did. They made me walked around TP looking like an idiot, with 15balloons in my hand. Well, that's my birthday bash from them, and it's NOT OVER YET ! Took the balloons into the lab and my AEM classmates were staring at me like they've never seen balloons before. First reaction from most of them : "Woaaaaaaaaaaah, who give you one?" Super Klassic people, righttt Chelcy ? After AEM, took a cab and rushed home to put my balloons down. Changed and after that went out with Jia En and Chelcy to have our lunch. Another funny thing happened. We were eating half way through and there of this group of 4 people which consists of 2 guys and 2 girls. They asked if we had any tissue and we replied them no. There was one guy who disturbed Jia En and said that his friend said Jia En is handsome. Nevermind, not only that. They kept looking over at our table and we could not eat in peace. The guy asked me if i was straight cause the girl wanted to be "" with me. Lesbian in another sense. I was totally speechless, asking myself if that was my birthday surprise. Cute! Jun Wei met us at East Link foodcourt. Took bus21 to Downtown east with Jia En and Jun Wei , and Chel momma went home. The two of them wanted to wait for me to end work, but end up they kept disturbing me when i was working. After awhile, Jia En went home and he never came back, leaving Jun Wei alone to sit there like an idiot waiting for me to end work. And he really did wait for me for 6hours, sitting at the pond area looking at fishes. Thank you(: Bro came to look for me and we went for supper together with Jun Wei. After that, Jun Wei sent me home, and i was rather bad cause i made him alight at my house bus stop when he can take the bus straight home. He was urgent to go to the toilet and he had to bear with it till he reached home. I know i am bad ! Thanks to all those who wished me happy birthday and those who gave me presents . Love you guys ! (:

I was having the AEM course at Temasek Polytechnic this morning and i can TP is really huge, like really HUGE! Lecture was alright, i was still able to concentrate for that pathetic 1 hour, and we had a 15minutes break after that. Next was tutorial, which was really boring yet interesting. Had a 1 and a half hour recess, which i've never had it before. 1 and a half hour, imagine... During the one hour break, Chelcy Mummy and I explored around the whole TP and we got lost, really lost cause TP is way too big. Soon, we found our way back to the room and we rested for 10mins before our tutorial started. During the tutorial, i was using the computer to surf the net and at the same time, searching for information about the terms. It's really cool, cause we got to use the computer as and when we want to without seeking permission from the lecturer. You can do anything you want, even sleep and the lecturer won't bother about you at all! Don't believe it, try it the next time. I am really in love with poly life, it's just full of freedom i can say. "We treat our students like adults, not teenagers. We believe in not scolding them' - From Mr Tay, our lecturer. That was what he told us, it is so damn true. Scolding won't help us much, instead we will rebel more if scolding were used on us. Poly's life is rather busy, i agree but yet you get to enjoy everything. They even have a air-conditioned canteen, can you imagine? And that air-conditioned canteen is like 10 times bigger than Springfield's canteen. Cool isn't it? Yeah, trust me, you people will love poly life more than anything else! Oh anyway, our lecturer is super classic, according to what Chelcy said. His hair is center parting, like peeled bananas, no offence though. And he kept looking up to the ceiling when he was teaching us, as if there were tons of gold up there. Super classic lecturer we have, but he's really nice. And i was super careless. The lecturer reminded us not to leave anything behind and i carelessly left my dearest handphone behind. I nearly lose my mind. Chelcy and I went to the office and told the person about it, and they opened up the door for us to get in to get my phone. Thank goodness my phone was still in there, otherwise i will really become insane. Left TP, and took bus8 to the interchange and we did some window-shopping to look for some things that might be necessary for my birthday party. Lastly, we headed home. That's all for today.


(-) Can someone surprise me this Friday with a cake and a piece of song on the guitar when i'm at TP having our course? I will be rushing for work at 4pm after the AEM course, it will end at 10pm. See how pathetic my birthday will be like. Sadded.
But Chelcy and the beannnnz family will be throwing a party for me maybe around 21st-25th June @ East Coast Park. Anybody interested to come, tag me on my blog and tell me about it :D

(-) My birthday is around the corner, i am wondering if you will wish me happy birthday.

(-) I want everyone to sing me a happy birthday song this Friday. Can can can?


My birthday wishlist :

- Lots of helim balloons with prints on it.
- Top shop black bikini top.
- Urban Male red/pink slippers.
- Charles and Keith pink wallet.
- Diva's cartoon bracelet.
- Cotton on denim beach shorts.
- Watches
- Handmade birthday cards by anyone
- Canon EOS 500D
- Nice-looking bags, haversack maybe.
- Grey beanie
- Top Shop Clothes and the Blue High Waist Denim shorts.
- Flats
- Necklaces from Mini bits.
- Someone to play a piece of song on the guitar for me and surprise me with a cake.
- Stitch birthday cake.
- Stitch figurines, items!



My dream birthday party ;

I want everyone to be dressed according to the dresscode given, everyone to come in pairs of the opposite sex. After that, someone would blindfold me and bring me to a corner where all my birthday presents are, and tons of balloons being tied there for me. And i will open up my blindfold, and someone will come in with a birthday cake, and everyone starts to sing for me a very loud birthday song! Lastly, someone will play a piece of song on the guitar for me, and there goes the cake-smashing session! How i wish it will come true.

Busy holiday plans ;

I am going for a job interview soon and i doubt i will be free during the holidays. I will be attending a Water Technology AEM course @ Temasek Polytechnic in May/June2010. There will be 14hours of lectures, 4hours of tutorials, 15hours of practical, 3hours of fieldtrip, 4hours of test and in total i am gonna sacrifice 40hours of my June holiday for this programme. Here is my schedule for this programme :

31May2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Practical

1stJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Practical

2ndJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1300 ; Practical
1300-1600pm ; Fieldtrip

3rdJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1345pm ; Test1

4thJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Practical

7thJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Practical

8thJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Practical

9thJune2010;

0900-1000am ; Lecture
1200-1400pm ; Test2

In total : 40 hours gone like this.

Other days, i still have the mural painting, and all my holiday plans are gone. I even have to attend this course on my birthday. I hope i won't get bashed on that day itself. Well, coming to think of it, i think it is rather meaningful to spend it this way than to sleep, eat, drink and shop all the time. Plus i am going to work, how cool is that. My holidays are all taken up, no going for me except weekends. Lastly, there's E-Learning on the last week of holidays. My 4weeks of holidays will be spent well. I can keep myself really occupied. There's a sec3 camp to Pahang from 29thJune2010-2ndJuly2010. That's all, goodluck to me for my holiday! :D

; I've lost my voice and i am talking like a robot, helppp me! I sound like a unisex, disgusting shit! But i still find it sexy though!

(-)I want to see you, you, you, you, you, you, you! 'You' make me smile! :D